Monday, December 10, 2007

Empty


     This is a funny picture of an experience i recently had. I was faced with my dumb expectations and worthless sighing over something i thought i liked but i never really wanted nor needed in my life. Haha. Good thing GOD opened my eyes to the truth that is silly me. And i am very thankful that HE doesn’t give me my every wish.
Hey, the lights are all pretty.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Where's the Baby?


            Funny. The star of the show is missing. Baka late lang. I wondered “Where’s Jesus?”
            Where is Jesus?
            Do you know? ‘coz i do. After i asked that question i found Him walking with me to the jeepney stop, riding with me to the station, and just enjoying the cool breeze of one starlit night. With my every breath i felt Him say that He loves me. And i whispered “I love you too.”
            I felt sorry for the Mary, Joseph, sheep and shepherds in the nativity scene. Jesus was with me.
            Eh ikaw? Where’s Jesus in your life? Still in the manger? Sayang. Gusto pa naman din Niya na samahan ka.

Friday, December 7, 2007

Difference: a CHN experience


  We started our community duty at 6AM and ended at 6PM. It was a fairly long day. We had our data collation for school health nursing (7-11AM), our implementation phase for community organizing (1-3PM) and to top it all off, we were assigned to do the general cleaning for the staff house (4-6PM).

    But what i found, which amazed me, was that at the end of the day i didn’t feel tired. It was so weird.  We were all over the place getting things ready for the CO program, working our ass off cleaning the staff house (which btw had a micro ecosystem in one of its corners due to the presence of wet wood and stuff. Eew), but i didn’t feel as exhausted as i thought i’d be.
   And i was thinking about this as i got off the illegallyloaded van (na FX) which we loaded with 15 people (that would be me & my group mates) plus 7 other passengers and the driver [23 in total]. I realized that being with my friends during the last 12 hours made a difference in the way i walked through my day. Throughout those numerous tasks, i was not alone. I was with wonderful people who carried the burden with me. People who i can hug when i feel tired, people who can when i can’t, people who showed that they were strong and happy despite the stress. I guess they really made things lighter for me. They actually made my community experience pleasant and enjoyable (to the point that i don’t think i want to go back to hospital duty again). They are truly a blessing from GOD.
    Maybe seeing your friend look like a haggard, or hearing somebody crack a corny joke, or maybe just feeling the warmth of their friendship makes a real difference in the stress you perceive everyday. Actually, i think it made all the difference.  

Friday, October 5, 2007

Oral Revalida

i've been wanting to say these words for the last 3 months:
PASADO AKO!!!!!!!!

hahaha. the feeling... grabe!! exultation! GOD is truly faithful. couldn't have done it without Jesus. feeling ko R.N. na ako.. haha.

60+ diseases.. been studying for 3 months (well that's not everyday).. and it all boiled down to this one fateful day at room 501/2(?)(i still don't know which is which).

i ended up with rheumatoid arthritis. with the kindest professor you could ever have (sir De Torres). hehe. blessing talaga! so with GOD's hand of blessing upon me, i went out of that room with a grade i don't think i deserve. but i know my prayers were answered, not because i passed, it was actually fine with me if i failed. but my prayer request was this:
                 that GOD be glorified through me.And i think He did that. He allowed me to pray for other people such as my groupmates.. and as they put their hope on GOD, GOD heard their prayer. they passed! and i was able to thank GOD with them and praise Him for His goodness.  i think GOD was glorified through that. :)

anyway, this is the song i was singing while waiting for my turn:

You must increase by Matt Redman

I Lift You High and bow down low
how high can you be
how low can I go

You must increase, I must decrease Lord
I'll bow down and you will be adored.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Silly Message: To the first one to come along

If i was a flower
You'd be the first one to buzz over
If i was the night
You'd be the first ray of light
If i was the land
You'd be the first tree to stand
If i were a painting
You'd be the first stroke of the drawing

=)

You are a big blessing
If you only knew
How your first "hello"
Chased away my blues

I know this poem is corny
But I'm really not sorry
'Coz you were the burst of life
When my sight was blurry

And though i can't stay
And i know you won't too
At the end of this silly message
Is my heartfelt THANK YOU!

Friday, September 28, 2007

9.28.07, 4:20 PM

Sorry po Father, i let my thoughts wander again
to places I'm not yet meant to travel
to feelings that should've been kept locked
help me o LORD to focus on you alone
You are my endless love
the only Truth i know
may You also be the only Truth i seemy one Desire, my only LOVE
take me deeper, and deeper
let me fall into my Saving Grace.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Twilight and 1:23


Thank you.. you don't know how much GOD has used you 
to bless me and take me closer to Him.

I am sorry for not respecting you 
and for being selfish. please forgive me.

You are always in my prayers. :)

twilight

The darkness will fade
a new dawn will arise
Light beckoning to come in
But i have kept the shutters barred
not because i love this murk
No.
But because i know
that in this gloom
i am alive
my heart beats
blood gushing through my veins
to my heart
enabling it to hear better
to see better
for when my eyes are closed
i see a new world
a world i refused to see, 4 revolutions
and when i open my eyes
the drakness will disappear
a new dawn arises
                           ... the princess awakes.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Speechless, Astonished, Amazed

 It's almost been 4 years now.. In 4 weeks it will be 4 years. And as i look back on all those tears, those smiles, those laughters, I.. surprisingly, shed a tear. A tear of joy? of sadness? no. but it's definitely not of regret. It's a tear of gratitude. to my Savior, my Jesus. who carried me through it all. grabe.. 
        Have you ever had that experience? that certain moment in your life where you could say you died there but now you live? I died somewhere in those 4 years.. but here i am. breathing. standing. loving every minute of every day GOD has blessed me with. 'coz every minute i feel His love for me, and my mind remembers that i should have never risen from the grave. but because of His love, His mercy.. i am here. telling you of His love.. of His UNFAILING LOVE..
         I cry every time i remember how He held me in His arms, how He told me He loved me when i almost killed Him with grief.

     GOD is real. 

     "To see is to believe"
     Well, i've seen HIM
            and i am speechless, astonished, amazed.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Fork in the road

there was a fork in the road..
and i took the other side.

yes

i see the new horizon Papa..
thank you.